Hola Mi Amor!

Hola Mi Amor!!!

HMA Family, listen… 😳 Don’t think I haven’t been thinking about y’all! Como estas?! How are ya? How ya 🐝?! Howdy doodle do?! LOL Man y’all I’ve been out here in some real life, real time love processing with the Lord lately. And I have been writing. I just can’t share it all here.

So… what were your thoughts, takeaways and such from my Walk On-A-Thon so far? Are you following my progress on Facebook? I will make a blog post this week since it will officially be 4 weeks in that I have completed.

Alright, let’s go ahead and get into this poem- oh but first let me share the song with you that inspired I Don’t Want To Love You. My daughter Dyawna who is one of the dopest humans that God has ever created, shared this song with me. Now this is how it goes. She’s like, “here’s this song I want you to listen to. We’re both gonna hang up and listen to it and then you’re gonna call me back.” 😂 Gotta love her!!!

Now it’s time for what poured out of me after this song got all in my atmosphere….

I Don’t Want To Love You 

by Jana M. Gamble

08.31.2025 y Sept. 1, 2025

I don’t want to love you 

I don’t think you understand, listen…

I don’t want to love you like I love you if you aren’t from whom God divinely pulled out the rib to make me

I don’t want to love you like I love you if what I’ve come to feel and desire was birthed from a seed planted by deception from the enemy creating a counterfeit love that stands as a roadblock delaying my role as a true helpmeet to the one I was created for 

I don’t want to love you like I love you if what I’ve really been called to you for is to be your destiny helper- to intercede for you, to keep you vision focused, to remind you of who God says you are and call up that which He has called you to do

I don’t want to love you like I love you if loving you in this way isn’t part of God’s Will for our lives- and even if it is and He made me for you, but in your free will it’s not me that you choose I don’t want to love you like I love you now forever because it would hurt too much to hold onto never

And I don’t want to love you like I love you when you do choose to open up, letting go of the fear and hesitation of loving me out loud. When you’ve decided you can no longer love me from a distance or pretend that every time you see me that you don’t want to wrap your arms around me and hold on until your last breath. Yeah, that. That’s why I don’t want to love you like I love you right now. Cuz when you’ve decided to love me proudly it provides my love permission to bloom where we’re planted. It makes room for my love for you to grow exponentially stronger, deeper, wider and more beautifully intentional than God has ever guided me to love before. 

So mi amor… I don’t want to love you like I love you today from this day forward. 

(😳…and side note I pray you understand poetry or let Holy Spirit give you insight or ASK me what that last line means if you’re confused for crying out loud! 😩🤣🤭)

Love you!!! 🥰🙏🏽♥️

Well that’s that piece! Let me know what you think. What did you like? What resonated with you the most? Well, I pray you have an amazing week and boldly go towards all that God is calling you to- On Purpose!

Te amo mucho mi amor! ♥️🙏🏽

Love & Blessings,

Jana M. Gamble

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