Hola Mi Amor!

Hola Mi Amor,

Man, man, man… How ya 🐝 my love?! How was your day? Anything I can pray for you about? Need a hug? 🤗😅 A virtual hug is as good as it gets at the moment, but at least you know you’re always in my prayers. That’s equivalent to a great big hug, right?!

I’ve been listening to a really great video on Youtube of Dr. Myles Munroe speaking. It is super powerful. First that is what I was going to share about today, but then after sharing my EPK with my family… I just had a little moment and got emotional. The good kind.

Yesterday I spent hours working on adding and subtracting graphically to my EPK. So today besides what I felt lead to add the bulk of my time was spent editing and adding to my bios. After I finished I sent it off to the company and organization that had requested it. Literally after sending it to the organization I realized I missed their email requesting me to be their speaker at an event in July of 2025! This became my first booking for next year praise God!!!

So a few minutes ago as I shared above, when I tell you… Wait. Have you ever been slapped by gratitude and gratefulness at the same stinkin time?! Man, I promise that’s what happened to me. That is why I was struck with the emotions that flooded me. I was looking through my EPK not to edit it or evaluate it, but to receive everything that’s divinely placed on each page.

Lord have mercy! This is one of that put your mask on first type of moments… I’m going to gather my breath, thoughts and manage these tears as I continue to be vulnerable and share with you.

Looking through the 22 pages of my electronic press kit so gently reminded me how good God is and how incredibly great He has been to me!!! Once upon a time not long ago and even on more recent days laced with “opportunities” it had seemed like I wouldn’t be able to further, continue or finish what God has blessed me to do creatively. And yet here I stand as a witness of ALL He’s brought me through, how He’s healed me and that He isn’t finished with me yet. HALLELUJAH!!!

Even with so many projects hanging in the balance that I poured my blood, sweat, tears and prayers into- it’s ONLY by the grace of God and my trust in Him that I can move on knowing that He knows my end from the beginning and NOTHING that I’ve been through will be wasted. Finding out through social media that a movie I produced is now available once again on multiple streaming platforms could’ve been very upsetting if I weren’t in the right headspace or matured in the ways that I have. BUT God!

Before my daughter came home last week I was organizing things in her room when I went through ONE of the tubs my Mami blessed me with filled with items from my childhood. When I tell you these tubs are like putting your hand in Mary Poppins’ purse! 😳 My Lord! 😂 Anyhow, I came across one of my favorite art pieces from middle school that I painted with watercolors. Seeing this really blessed my heart.

This morning I was even thinking about some of the art projects I didn’t complete during the pandemic and then when I couldn’t even fathom to be creative in my deepest points of depression and trauma recovery. My very first paintings were anger and emotion focused just breaking the barrier to even be able to be creative again to express myself. I would paint and then talk to my trauma therapist about what the pieces meant, how I felt creating them and how we could process using what I created. I actually want to find one real quick. Please hold…

Okay I found my very first painting and two other pieces that came after it that I completely forgot about.

My God on today! 🥹 There is so much emotion and memories connected in and to these pieces… God I THANK YOU for bringing me through!!!! Hallelujah! Thank You Jesus!

Before the holiday I finished my horse picture inspired by my Ace. Unfortunately because the temperature is going to be so low tomorrow I won’t get to have my session with Ace which will be two weeks I haven’t gotten to hug on my big boy.

While in Moberly with my family I took mis sobrinos to the store and bought all of us art supplies for a few projects. We all had a blast painting. Even Ze’Anna when I just gave her a little water, a paint brush and a few pieces of bubble wrap lol. Needless to say she’s a smart one and convinced her Tía to give her some actual paint. 😂

So even though this woman of God has been through all of this-

I’m still living- On Purpose!!!

I’m still a vessel God can use!

I’m still gifted, talented and creative!

God’s not done with me yet.

God didn’t give up on me and I’m not giving up on me either!

The BEST is yet to come in, with and through me in Jesus’ name!!!

I’m still that child of God who He placed purpose inside of to glorify Him and be a blessing in His Kingdom.

Be encouraged today! God is no respecter of persons. If He did it for me, then He can do it for you too! 🙏🏽❤️‍🩹🕊️💐

Have a blessed day- On Purpose!

Love,

Janabee 🐝