Hola Mi Amor!

Hola Mi Amor!

¿Cómo estás? As always I pray you are well. Been thinking about you and praying for you like you know I do. How was your day?

This month I’ve had the blessing to get back to what I love and it was a production all about love!!! Love is my jam lol 😂🤗🥰💜 I worked on a reality show where a young farmer was trying to find a wife. Well I do have to admit something to you though… You’ve gotta know that I’m a Country Girl that’s City Livin’ and-

I fell in love!!!

Never fear amor, my heart still yearns for the one that God has for me! But I certainly fell in love with the farmer’s dog LOL! He was absolutely the sweetest boy who learned my vehicle and greeted me with such excitement each time I arrived. We got to snuggle, play and hangout over this month which was nice because I’m definitely missing my Mamba Kobe Marie Gamble 🐾 since he’s been away at college with my Dyawna.

So I was thinking this evening as I’m watching The Chosen about how good God is and how He continues to keep me. I’ve been taking care of FiFi, my mentor’s dog for the week. Needless to say we hit it off perfectly and I’ve been spoiling her ever since!

It made me think about my love languages and how I had been feeling. My love languages are physical touch and quality time. Being a complete empty nester now and single single has been a bit challenging in some ways. Without any of my babies around and living far from my family I’ve had a LOT of time alone and certainly far below my weekly hug quota to say the least.

I’m literally typing this with tears running down my face AND with a grateful heart. They’re not tears of sadness, but of awareness and appreciation that I guess I needed right now. It’s cleansing. It’s necessary. So as FiFi lays in my lap and the past has tried to make “it’s way” back into my present, I am truly grateful both for how far God has brought me and how deeply I’ve learned to LOVE ME because of Him.

This is as close as I could find to the image that God gave me when someone from my past starting sending me “coded texts.” I knew in my heart that I’m NOT GOING BACK hence why I didn’t even respond. And the fact that this image was given to me was just confirmation of the decision I’d already decided a year ago.

Yeah it’s creeping up on “cuffing season” or whatever you choose to call it, and there is NO doubt in my mind that I’m exactly where I’m supposed to be. I’ve done things on my own, forced relationships that weren’t meant for me, stayed and was loyal for 5 and nearly 10 years when I knew those weren’t God’s best for me! BUT God! I’m so grateful for “second chance…”

I still believe with all of my heart that God has been preparing me for you just as He’s been preparing you for me. For this last year I have been doing nothing but chasing after God and working diligently to heal and become all that He wants me to be to give Him glory. I’ve not “been talking to” or dating a soul but Jesus. I don’t even feel any type of way but grateful. Although I wait and desire the man that God has for me, I am honored to serve with my whole heart until that ordained time that my service as a single shifts to that of a married woman of God.

In God’s time… So I’ll wait on His timing to finally receive the fullness of your love united with His. I pray that you listen and see all that God is showing you concerning me and all that He has for you to do in this season. Don’t doubt what He’s called you to do through your gifts and for His Kingdom. He trusts you with what He’s called, assigned, instructed and purposed for you to do sir. Believe in yourself as much as He believes in you!!! You were made for this!

Until next time my love…

Te amo mucho mi amor. 🙏🏽💜🕊️