Hola Mi Amor!

Hola Mi Amor!

Cómo estás mijita? My God. Where does the time go?! It seems like just a breath ago that you were this adorable little girl with banana curls. So full of life and light- skipping to the beat of your heart. Flipping, leaping and cartwheeling as you moved about. God surely made you special and of that I have no doubt.

Jana Banana the small town that you grew up in will try to shape you in good ways and ways that hurt- and still you’ll grow up and be willing to give a stranger your shirt. Your light shines so brightly. Don’t ever let anyone hide your glow mi amor. They’ll try in more ways than you can imagine. It won’t feel any kind of good and you will survive.

Mi amor surviving isn’t the goal. I want you to thrive. Live! I mean truly live the life that God has called you to live. In order to work toward this it’s going to take a lot of sacrifice and investments in your mental wellbeing and mental health. You will have to learn to love YOU again one day. This journey is more like a marathon! You’ll feel the pain of your past and present in every area of your body. You’ll be held back only by standing in your own way Banana. Tap in to the determination that will ensue through repeated tests, allowing it to forge your ears to detect God’s voice and your mind to decide that you deserve all of God’s best.

Fall in love with LOVE again. Let love in. Love always wins so you cannot lose. You were made to love. You deserve love. Let love lead you in all that you do.

The distance of your father and the scued self image you adapt will be a recipe for relationship disasters if you let them. Don’t settle for what prostitutes itself as true love. Love doesn’t beat you down. It won’t seek to imprison you, deplete you or destroy your financial progress. It won’t scream or demean you. It won’t leave you empty or keep you in isolation.

Jana Marie I, better than anyone in this world, know your heart of compassion. You are not meant to attach yourself to a partner to soley benefit them. No matter how much you believe in him or can see his purpose buried deep within- you, young lady, can’t do “it” for him. You can’t want it more than he wants it for himself! Are you trying to be his helpmeet or his Mami? Selah.

Love is the Greatest | 1 Corinthians 13 NLT 

13 If I could speak all the languages of earth and of angels, but didn’t love others, I would only be a noisy gong or a clanging cymbal. ² If I had the gift of prophecy, and if I understood all of God’s secret plans and possessed all knowledge, and if I had such faith that I could move mountains, but didn’t love others, I would be nothing. ³ If I gave everything I have to the poor and even sacrificed my body, I could boast about it;^[a] but if I didn’t love others, I would have gained nothing.

⁴ Love is patient and kind. Love is not jealous or boastful or proud ⁵ or rude. It does not demand its own way. It is not irritable, and it keeps no record of being wronged. ⁶ It does not rejoice about injustice but rejoices whenever the truth wins out.⁷ Love never gives up, never loses faith, is always hopeful, and endures through every circumstance.

⁸ Prophecy and speaking in unknown languages^[b] and special knowledge will become useless. But love will last forever! ⁹ Now our knowledge is partial and incomplete, and even the gift of prophecy reveals only part of the whole picture! ¹⁰ But when the time of perfection comes, these partial things will become useless.

¹¹ When I was a child, I spoke and thought and reasoned as a child. But when I grew up, I put away childish things. ¹² Now we see things imperfectly, like puzzling reflections in a mirror, but then we will see everything with perfect clarity.^[c] All that I know now is partial and incomplete, but then I will know everything completely, just as God now knows me completely.

¹³ Three things will last forever—faith, hope, and love—and the greatest of these is love.

As you grow in maturity, making the committed decisions to work on your healing journey and to wait for “The One” remember these things:

• Put God 1st always and in all ways.
• Pray and go deeper as you commune with God.
• Be gentle with yourself.
• Forgive yourself and others.
• Take your time. Your healing journey doesn’t have to look like anyone else’s!
• Choose progress over perfection.
• Walk in your purpose.
• Get your joy back and enjoy life.
• Before you fall in love again- heal and fall in love with who God created you to be.
• Wait for God’s BEST for you and nothing less!!!
• Praise God for His grace and mercy, never forgetting to give the same to others.
• Remember that whatever you do, do it in love.
• Always let your light shine!

This is just the beginning of this journey. I look forward to sharing more with you soon love.

Have a blessed day- On Purpose!